Vindication

It’s impossible to explain this part well.
Because it’s deeply connected to my upbringing, personality, view of life, morals, and the situation.
In short, originally I’d never intent to refuse, but I couldn’t find it.
That is, ★ It was never rebellion or harm, but rather confusion.
But I was soon sieged, so I had to resist them ever since.
★I’m only an unfortunate social misfit.
I am the most regrettable one, but it’s not a matter here.